My Everyday Miracles

Sorry I have been MIA here for awhile, heck everywhere. I have not written a real post for GIMH for months and I have about 7 started and none finished. I have an equal number of posts started for this blog and they as well are going no where. My post for GIMH is now two weeks late for this month, my kids are now a month bigger on this site. I am not sure I have what some would call writer’s block as I have a lot of things I want to write about, but writing about those things will get me yelled at by someone or ignored by someone or could be just plain controversial and lately I am just not in the mood. I usually leave the controversial stuff to GIMH, matter of fact I have a post I wrote some time ago on this site I have been editing to put on GIMH for 3 months, but I am afraid to hurt one of the other writers there feelings.

The problem with being MIA is that I am not writing through my feelings anymore, I am holding them in. I am not even privately writing through my feelings. I gave up on Project 365 because I felt like I stopped writing as I wanted to and started writing just for the sake of writing. I have a few things I was asked to review that I wanted to put up here as well as GIMH (one is a pretty cool book written almost entirely of tweets leading up to adoption…a great read prior to adopting or while you are adopting). I have been putting a few things on the review site lately. I put the etsy shop on vacation and let a few custom orders go.

I seem to have lost something. I am not sure what but something. It seems to be gone. I am tired of trying to talk about things with my friends and getting dismissed or told that I am wrong. I am sick of advice about things that I didn’t ask for advice about. For those offering me advice, I rarely jump into anything eyes closed. Not only have I done my research I have looked at both sides of the issue. Don’t tell me not to worry about things that I have expressed concern to you over, there are reasons I am concerned or should be concerned. I am not stupid and have spent a good portion of my life trying to prove that, I am tired of trying to prove this. Also, know that I know my kids very well and when I say x, y or z will happen, trust me it will happen that way.

Oh yeah and while I am on the topic of unwanted advice, Aaron and I will decide the size of our family. If we want to adopt again and tell you we will start the process again in January a completely inappropriate responses are “you already have a boy and a girl why would you want anymore?” or “isn’t two enough?” or “you know how crazy kids are at 3, why would you want to start another adoption now?” or “how are you going to afford that” — appropriate responses are “congratulations” and “I am so glad that you have decided to grow your family” and “We are praying for your family” and “I am so happy for you.” Don’t be surprised if you gave us one of the first responses and you learn of our third child through friends and not from us directly.

Ok I am leaving you with these before my current mood gets the best of this post (tomorrow we will talk about Tinkerbell):

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Written by Carissa on June 13, 2010 under Mommy.

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