My Life Would S*ck Without You

Yep — that is what I said My Life Would S*ck Without You — it is the name of a song that I am going to try to find so you can all hear it. The song has me thinking though about the last year and how really there are some people who without them my life really would s*ck right now (and while yes that would be so true about my husband and kids this post is not about them or about Alison who I could write about for days….)

I never expected the last year to be so hard. I never expected that my identity would be so wrapped up in a title and how a change of that title would just about do me in. I never expected to try so many different things in an attempt to find a new identity. I never expected so few people to get it and I never expected to make my own way and be ok with the letters S-A-H-M at the end of the year. I also never expected to find some new friends that do not live down the street or a car ride away that would not care how far down in the dumps I got and would stick it out until I came out on the other side with a better idea of what I wanted, what I needed and how I wanted to get there. Women who I have heard say – “I don’t want to JUST be a SAHM but no matter what, no matter how my family comes first and I will still make it doing things my way and taking the day off if my child is sick, my husband is being honored, or the kids have a play is not only ok it is the norm.” And they have made it O.K. to have a bad parenting day – teaching me that not everyday is roses and rainbows (actually I have learned while the kids are 2 it varies from hour to hour) and that before I do something I could regret I could complain to them and they will at least provide me a good laugh and I will not be as angry (I call it my mommy timeout). But they also tell me some fun things I can do with Little Man and Little Princess that have caused pure laughter and joy to be part of our day

We have been there through the bad deaths in more than one family, seizures, illness, and so much more as well as the good including one impending birth (yes one of these amazing women is about to give birth)! We show up to support each other – some even going as far as appearing in Atlanta and Las Vegas while another one of us spoke! We have never all been in one place at one time but except for the pregnant one we have all met at least one other person from the group! (and if I could find a contest to enter us in I so would so that we could all meet for a week and hang out and just have fun – I would not only enter I would find a way for us to win!)

I don’t remember how I became a part of this amazing little group (they all know how they became a part of it….but not me) it seems like one day I was just a part of the group and I have never looked back and to my knowledge neither have they! I laugh because they have me pegged perfectly – the straight A student who took notes and typed them up at the end of the day and would share them with whoever asks – but that if we had all been in school together we would probably have not ended up together I mean I would have been scared to death to talk to the princess, and would have left the band room far behind me, and would have hated the class clown because I could not learn while they were goofing off and so forth and so on….but now it just works, and it works well! Heck I am the “old” lady or at least I feel like it and in school I was almost always the youngest…

Somehow I found a support group when I most needed it – a group of women who were not afraid to tell me NO WAY GIRL or GO FOR IT GIRL – YOU CAN DO IT and were not afraid of me at my worst nor I of them. The group of women who say try it and if you fail we are still here for you and if you succeed then we will still be right here cheering for you. The unconditional support – even if they are not sure what I am doing or what mood I will be in – means EVERYTHING to me. I can only remember one other time in my life when I felt this kind of support and no one will believe it when I say it was the summer after my first year of law school — long story short had it not been for those people then I would have NEVER graduated law school, NEVER. Now if not for these women I am not sure I would have come out of this last year where I currently am – content for the moment…I would still be back where I was in July, scared and confused.

So to these women – Jen, Jeni, Fiona, Karrie, Kelly, Michele and Cheryl if I were still in the 80′s I would make you a mixed tape to show you how I care…if I could I would make all of your dreams come true, there is no doubt in my mind that “My Life Would S*ck Without You” and someday somehow I will make it up to each of you. Thank you just does not seem to be enough right now – I am not sure there are words anywhere in the world to let you know how much you all mean to me.

So in an attempt – thank you girls…I love each and every one of you!

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